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What Infertility Means .... to me...

This week is National Infertility Awareness week. I thought I might take a moment and just express what infertility feels like to me. While at times I do feel sorry for myself, this isn't a pity post. Just an awareness one, and one that comes from my heart.  I truly believe that God makes families in many different ways. It can be biologically, fostering, adoption or maybe He choses that your family is just to be the people around you. Although I know that its sounds cliche, but I believe that God's plans for me are better than what I have for myself. I do not know if I will ever have a biological child. I hope too. Very much so. But, I also know if in my life, it is only ever my husband, dogs and I, that I can be happy with that as well.  However, there are days where the ache for a child can be almost overwhelming. When it seems like every woman at the grocery store is pregnant, or when invitations for baby showers, gender reveals and first birthdays arrive. This does no...

Infertility Battle: The Beginning

Lots of people know about my journey with Fibromyalgia. But what a lot of people don't know about is that I have struggled with infertility as well. It has been something that has been a battle since I was 23 years old. There have been so many wishful moments, followed by sad moments, and stressful moments. When I met Steven, and we first started dating, I made it clear to him that before things got too serious, he needed to know that I struggled with infertility and that biological children may not be possible for me, and that if he thought about being serious with me, he needed to think really long and hard about that. Being the man that he is, he said pretty much said he loved me and not my ability to have or not have children, and that there are plenty of children who need homes and people who will love them. Bless him. As soon as we got married, we began our battle with infertility together. I am older than Steven by about 12 years so, according to our doctor, our years l...

Moments

I have thought the last few days in the direction of where I wanted to take my blog. What did I want focus on in my writing? Did I even want to write anymore?  There are a few topics that come to mind, and they are all part of my life, and any given day, the focus changes. I could talk about our focus to get out of debt, my struggles with Fibromyalgia, PCOS, and migraines,  or just being newlyweds and our day to day life, like when we stay home and eat dinner on the couch and watch Law and Order: SVU. I really don't know that there will be one solid focus. I just would like to be more consistent in posting. I think of topics, but it seems to be when I am driving or right before I fall to sleep, and within a few moments, they are forgotten. So, here is an update on where we are now, and maybe I can use this as a place to jump from in the future... Steven and I have settled into a nice routine of  married life. The week is filled with work, house work and thi...